So the first semester of college is nearly over. I just have some finals left, and I'm excited to go home. I'm excited to have Carl over for the week too. I'm excited to not drive an hour to school everyday. There's a lot of things I'm happy about but mostly I just need a month long break to get over all of this school stress!
Also, I'm getting really tired of my uncle and Matt. I want my dad's house back. Or rather, I want my own place.
I'm still undecided on transferring to USF. Right now I'm still leaning more towards staying at UT and just having an apartment off campus. Then I can still share with Carl, but I can keep going to my school, because I really do like it here. USF has its own perks, but I'm happy where I am for now.
I have much more to say, but I need to run an errand right now. Maybe I'll be back, or maybe I'll just update once I'm in Michigan. Whatever!
Dec 9, 2011
Oct 18, 2011
Still swimming alone in the lake
These past two days have been full of college lessons. This is serious business now, unlike high school and I can't be messing around.
First, I ate 5 of those cookies we made (the five that Carl left for me) and quickly became so high I couldn't do anything. Scary high. The high everyone talks about when you eat to many pot-whatevers and you can't even handle yourself. And it stayed that way for the entire night, and I couldn't finish my online homework. Which isn't so terrible except that I did that last time too. I got so distracted that I didn't finish it in time. So now that's two assignments in a row that I've missed, so it's good that I like chemistry and I understand what's going on.
Second, I procrastinated on an essay that I only had a few days to write up in the first place, and didn't start writing it until late the day before (today) and so now it remains unfinished. Luckily it's only a draft, and this draft doesn't even need to be turned in (that's two days from now). But I really need to sleep tonight because I have two midterms tomorrow, plus that writing class where I have to present with my group our project and then stress about not finishing that paper. I'm freaking out already and if it wasn't for the fact that I have super As in both Chem and FYW then I would probably have killed myself.
School is very serious when you are paying for it yourself. And speaking of which, I need a job! Hopefully that call center job happens and they overlook my faults on the voice-mail interview since I haven't really had a job before.
Anyway, good night! I'm not helping myself. I have to get up early and technically this means I'm still procrastinating on that essay by writing this blog post, but I can't help myself.
First, I ate 5 of those cookies we made (the five that Carl left for me) and quickly became so high I couldn't do anything. Scary high. The high everyone talks about when you eat to many pot-whatevers and you can't even handle yourself. And it stayed that way for the entire night, and I couldn't finish my online homework. Which isn't so terrible except that I did that last time too. I got so distracted that I didn't finish it in time. So now that's two assignments in a row that I've missed, so it's good that I like chemistry and I understand what's going on.
Second, I procrastinated on an essay that I only had a few days to write up in the first place, and didn't start writing it until late the day before (today) and so now it remains unfinished. Luckily it's only a draft, and this draft doesn't even need to be turned in (that's two days from now). But I really need to sleep tonight because I have two midterms tomorrow, plus that writing class where I have to present with my group our project and then stress about not finishing that paper. I'm freaking out already and if it wasn't for the fact that I have super As in both Chem and FYW then I would probably have killed myself.
School is very serious when you are paying for it yourself. And speaking of which, I need a job! Hopefully that call center job happens and they overlook my faults on the voice-mail interview since I haven't really had a job before.
Anyway, good night! I'm not helping myself. I have to get up early and technically this means I'm still procrastinating on that essay by writing this blog post, but I can't help myself.
Oct 11, 2011
Where you been?
I'm excited to go to the concert tomorrow. I used to be a big fan of Gym Class Heroes, I don't think I know any of the songs by heart anymore though. I haven't listened to one of their albums in years. I wonder if they're still the same band, you know? I don't really know anything about the Dirty Heads either. I know one song, but really only the chorus, and in fact I didn't even know that band that sang it. Anyway, I am looking forward to it because I haven't been to a concert in two years now, I think, and it's the experience of it that I really want. Even if I don't know the bands, I'm just happy to go and dance, and hopefully hear some great music. However, I am kind of bummed because Carl's "dragging" me to this one, but I really wanted to go to a Das Racist concert last Thursday and didn't because I knew he didn't really know or like them. I guess it's different though since he's paying for the tickets, and I wouldn't make him pay for a concert he didn't want to see.
And speaking of paying for everything, he really needs to stop that. I really appreciate going out and doing all of this stuff, but he needs that money too and he's blowing it all on me. And it puts me in a weird place too because I want to reciprocate and can't, and now when I get a job instead of saving for college or food or for rent or whatever, I have to worry about paying him back. Or at least I do worry because I can't tell if he's serious about me being in debt to him or if it really is just an "I love you" thing.
So many things I worry about, and I'm so tired, and I miss Michigan and my family and my friends.
I have a lot of Bio Lab homework to start and finish though, and I have to get up very early tomorrow, so I can't write more.
Good night, whoever, myself.
And speaking of paying for everything, he really needs to stop that. I really appreciate going out and doing all of this stuff, but he needs that money too and he's blowing it all on me. And it puts me in a weird place too because I want to reciprocate and can't, and now when I get a job instead of saving for college or food or for rent or whatever, I have to worry about paying him back. Or at least I do worry because I can't tell if he's serious about me being in debt to him or if it really is just an "I love you" thing.
So many things I worry about, and I'm so tired, and I miss Michigan and my family and my friends.
I have a lot of Bio Lab homework to start and finish though, and I have to get up very early tomorrow, so I can't write more.
Good night, whoever, myself.
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