i take it back, i take it all back now (not really)

Paralyzed by the same old antics
Back and forth like some walking spastic
How could a fistfight be romantic?
Thinking back now will you ever feel the same?


dear mom,

i'm going to live with dad. sorry. if you don't like it, well, there's not much you can do about it. i have the choice, and your not it. it's not like i'm ever here anyway. besides, one less mouth to feed, right? (not that you ever had food anyway). i'll get all of the things i'll need out of my room, and i'll see you next weekend. or after school sometimes.

bye. i can't say it was good.

I've heard a million lullabies, but this one's true

25-4-08:
Friday

"Silent for Lawrence King:
Please understand my reasons for not speaking today. I am participating in the Day of Silence (DOS), a national youth movement bringing attention to the silence faced by lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender people and their allies. My deliberate silence echoes that silence, which is caused by anti-LGBT name-calling, bullying and harassment. This year’s DOS is held in memory of Lawrence King, a 15 year-old student who was killed in school because of his sexual orientation and gender expression. I believe that ending the silence is the first step toward building awareness and making a commitment to address these injustices. Think about the voices you are not hearing today."

I can't wait when we're out of time

Sounds of silence never lasts
This home's under attack
I fight the tears but I can't hold back
I watch it fall apart
I'm slipping through the cracks
Can someone tell me what I'm fighting for?

It takes more than words to win this war when there's no one left to hear
And it takes more than words to win this war when there's no one left who cares

Trust was broken with a kiss
This lying won't be missed
I've tried so hard but I can't forget
I watched it fall apart
Now there's nothing left to fix
Can someone tell me what I'm fighting for?

It takes more than words to win this war when there's no one left to hear
And it takes more than words to win this war when there's no one left who cares

I can't stay in this house of lies
I can't change this to make things right
I can't wait when we're out of time
I can't stay here tonight

It takes more than words to win this war when there's no one left to hear
And it takes more than words to win this war when there's no one left who cares for us

-MH