Get me out of here.
Promise me it soon will end.
Promise me we won't have to stay.
Promise me that everything will disappear.
Promise me we won't live long enough to fall apart.
Sep 25, 2009
You'll have to pay to watch me die
So, I found out via Julie that my mom says that she's going to keep us at her house unless my dad is home.
Well, fuck that.
Do to relations being less than amiable, I think it's time for some drastic action. I have a choice, but I'd still have to go through court. That could take Quite a few months, and I have to wonder, would it be worth it? By the time everything would be finished, I'd probably only have 6 months left until I'm 18 anyway.
I told Carl that if I didn't have responsibilities here, I would have run away.
I'm just so tired of losing control the second that I think that I have it. I'm tired of not having authority over my own life.
It's funny how whenever I try to branch out I'm "only 16" but when it's time for me to start being responsible I'm "almost 18 and out of the house." I don't see the difference. Someone please explain because it's lost on me.
I've tried to be respectful, at the very least cooperative and functioning, but apparently that's not good enough. Somehow she seems to forget that I don't like her, and when it comes flooding back to her, it's a shock every time.
I really can't take this anymore.
... I was on yahoo answers and some freshman was asking why parents thought it was bad to be bumping and grinding on the dance floor. I gave her a link to this video: http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.php?v=wshhTFM3iHEm8xEUmerY
REAL CUTE.
Shit society. Shit culture. Shit, mindless people. Why does it seem that we're the only ones with morals left?
Well, fuck that.
Do to relations being less than amiable, I think it's time for some drastic action. I have a choice, but I'd still have to go through court. That could take Quite a few months, and I have to wonder, would it be worth it? By the time everything would be finished, I'd probably only have 6 months left until I'm 18 anyway.
I told Carl that if I didn't have responsibilities here, I would have run away.
I'm just so tired of losing control the second that I think that I have it. I'm tired of not having authority over my own life.
It's funny how whenever I try to branch out I'm "only 16" but when it's time for me to start being responsible I'm "almost 18 and out of the house." I don't see the difference. Someone please explain because it's lost on me.
I've tried to be respectful, at the very least cooperative and functioning, but apparently that's not good enough. Somehow she seems to forget that I don't like her, and when it comes flooding back to her, it's a shock every time.
I really can't take this anymore.
... I was on yahoo answers and some freshman was asking why parents thought it was bad to be bumping and grinding on the dance floor. I gave her a link to this video: http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.php?v=wshhTFM3iHEm8xEUmerY
REAL CUTE.
Shit society. Shit culture. Shit, mindless people. Why does it seem that we're the only ones with morals left?
Sep 22, 2009
And what am I supposed to say? Tell you why I turned out this way? Don't make me, don't make me!
I'm tired. My mother is a dumbass.
Things are shaky, yet others are solid. I'm still confused.
I'm lost. I feel like I don't have the dedication to school that I had last year. I feel like I'm slipping. I don't care for homework. I don't care for projects. I don't care for anything. '
Everything is disenchanting.
I've got a lot on my mind.
I realized today that I'm more apathetic than most. It makes me feel... isolated.
I thought those pictures were hilarious. Apparently they're not. Or so I've been seeing.
I am not an American. I am not a European. I am definitely not Asian or African or Australian or South American or Antarctican.
I am out of place.
In other news, there is to be a dance party. For serious. A belated Halloween/early Thanksgiving and Christmas/Columbus/New year's eve/day dance party in the middle of November. Guests are required to wear a costume (somehow incorporating a pilgrim hat if possible), and there is to be a countdown to the midnight turkey dinner and somewhere in there will be a gift exchange.
This was perfectly coordinated for Natalena and Ashley, so there you go :D
There will be more details as we go.
"I really don't understand how you can lose a test between your desk and mine, Brendan."
Things are shaky, yet others are solid. I'm still confused.
I'm lost. I feel like I don't have the dedication to school that I had last year. I feel like I'm slipping. I don't care for homework. I don't care for projects. I don't care for anything. '
Everything is disenchanting.
I've got a lot on my mind.
I realized today that I'm more apathetic than most. It makes me feel... isolated.
I thought those pictures were hilarious. Apparently they're not. Or so I've been seeing.
I am not an American. I am not a European. I am definitely not Asian or African or Australian or South American or Antarctican.
I am out of place.
In other news, there is to be a dance party. For serious. A belated Halloween/early Thanksgiving and Christmas/Columbus/New year's eve/day dance party in the middle of November. Guests are required to wear a costume (somehow incorporating a pilgrim hat if possible), and there is to be a countdown to the midnight turkey dinner and somewhere in there will be a gift exchange.
This was perfectly coordinated for Natalena and Ashley, so there you go :D
There will be more details as we go.
"I really don't understand how you can lose a test between your desk and mine, Brendan."
Sep 19, 2009
The Stars and the Night Owls,
All better.
I'm going to start and try to finish my french project. That will take care of a month and a half of worries.
On another note, the vet said that Bodle should be fine, however there are still risks, blah blah blah, but basically every 10 days he'll need to get a new splint and bandages and every other visit he'll need new x-rays.
The cost will come out to be roughly $800 total ($120 per visit for bandage change, $200 for visits with x-rays), but we're covered with our petcare card thing for like $2700 (if I mentioned that before, excuse me).
Also, our vet is a really tall guy who kind of reminds me of Carl's brother, except with hair, and personality. And also, he's a creep. The patient room has two doors in it so that the doctor can access all of the testing rooms and things, and the door to that particular hallway has a viewing window, and when the vet showed up, I looked through that window and THERE WAS HIS FACE, just like, BAM.
On an overshadowed note, Frankie has been eating much less and spends most of his time under his rocks sleeping, and I'm getting the inclination that he's going into hibernation because we don' have a heater and so the temperature outside directly corresponds to the temperature inside and to the water temperature. So, today we'll buy him some fish and a heater or a heating rock. I will also look into gravel or sand for him. Our best bet I'm assuming would be Stingers on Plymouth rd.
We're still going to Frankenmuth tomorrow, but apparently it's not as big of a deal to my mom. Turns out the idea was compliments of my older sister who felt guilty and duped us into it. Too late to change our plans again though, so we'll still stop by her house.
So, okay, bye.
I'm going to start and try to finish my french project. That will take care of a month and a half of worries.
On another note, the vet said that Bodle should be fine, however there are still risks, blah blah blah, but basically every 10 days he'll need to get a new splint and bandages and every other visit he'll need new x-rays.
The cost will come out to be roughly $800 total ($120 per visit for bandage change, $200 for visits with x-rays), but we're covered with our petcare card thing for like $2700 (if I mentioned that before, excuse me).
Also, our vet is a really tall guy who kind of reminds me of Carl's brother, except with hair, and personality. And also, he's a creep. The patient room has two doors in it so that the doctor can access all of the testing rooms and things, and the door to that particular hallway has a viewing window, and when the vet showed up, I looked through that window and THERE WAS HIS FACE, just like, BAM.
On an overshadowed note, Frankie has been eating much less and spends most of his time under his rocks sleeping, and I'm getting the inclination that he's going into hibernation because we don' have a heater and so the temperature outside directly corresponds to the temperature inside and to the water temperature. So, today we'll buy him some fish and a heater or a heating rock. I will also look into gravel or sand for him. Our best bet I'm assuming would be Stingers on Plymouth rd.
We're still going to Frankenmuth tomorrow, but apparently it's not as big of a deal to my mom. Turns out the idea was compliments of my older sister who felt guilty and duped us into it. Too late to change our plans again though, so we'll still stop by her house.
So, okay, bye.
Sep 18, 2009
And you know that you can blame it all on me.
AWESOME.
I would love to go to the game with you!
I'm going to have SO much fun there seeing lots of friends and being with you like we used to.
Thanks a whole lot.
I love you too.
Thanks for calling to talk to me tonight too.
(or maybe Thanks for stopping by to see me! You really didn't have to.)
You're so nice and considerate.
I really don't deserve such a great boyfriend as you.
I'm gonna sleep like a fucking baby tonight.
Plus, I'm getting sick because of crying my eyes out so much lately.
You know what I really love? That I have to find everything out through your dad. This is the 5th + time that I've called your house only to be disappointed to find that you're out doing something and I won't be able to talk to you then, or that night.
I understand that we agreed that we'd do more stuff with our friends, without each other, but did it ever cross your mind that maybe I would like to go? That maybe I would know people at the game so that I could have just as much fun as you, instead of at home doing nothing but homework?
I may be grounded, but that doesn't mean that I can't do anything at all.
And would it kill you to call me every once in a while?
I really can't believe this.
Did you forget everything we talked about this morning?
I'm curious to see how you justify this one. I really am.
I would love to go to the game with you!
I'm going to have SO much fun there seeing lots of friends and being with you like we used to.
Thanks a whole lot.
I love you too.
Thanks for calling to talk to me tonight too.
(or maybe Thanks for stopping by to see me! You really didn't have to.)
You're so nice and considerate.
I really don't deserve such a great boyfriend as you.
I'm gonna sleep like a fucking baby tonight.
Plus, I'm getting sick because of crying my eyes out so much lately.
You know what I really love? That I have to find everything out through your dad. This is the 5th + time that I've called your house only to be disappointed to find that you're out doing something and I won't be able to talk to you then, or that night.
I understand that we agreed that we'd do more stuff with our friends, without each other, but did it ever cross your mind that maybe I would like to go? That maybe I would know people at the game so that I could have just as much fun as you, instead of at home doing nothing but homework?
I may be grounded, but that doesn't mean that I can't do anything at all.
And would it kill you to call me every once in a while?
I really can't believe this.
Did you forget everything we talked about this morning?
I'm curious to see how you justify this one. I really am.
Fucking delicious.
Ooohhhhhhh damn these are the sweetest grass-tasties around.
They better be after I slogged through all this swampy bullshit.
Sep 16, 2009
No one shines like you do
There are construction workers outside my house tearing up the sidewalk and the street. AWESOME.
I came home from school to find that Bodle had diarrhea and shit himself and pretty much everything. The advice I got from the vet was "It's probably his medication." Really? HOW COULD I HAVE GUESSED? So they just said to give him half of the dose I was prescribed for him. By the way, the lady I talked to on the phone, was the assistant who we talked with all night, and somehow she didn't remember that I was there two days ago.
She forgot to give us a list of veterinarians around here who specialize in exotics when my dad and I left on Monday, so she just told me about two places over the phone. The first one is in Clinton Township and is about an hour drive away. The second one is closer but they're not open late hours, or on Sunday.And seeing how the recheck date is looming upon us, I tried to get the earliest appointment possible, which was Friday at 2pm (impossible), or Saturday at 11:20.
Mind you, we're going to Frankenmuth on Saturday. I called my dad to tell him and he said he wanted to try to be up at Frankenmuth by noon (impossible now) and that it was an hour and a half drive up there. So, sorry, but it's going to be delayed. It'd be cold in the morning anyway, and it's not like we don't have all day (well, most of it). If we left at 1 or 1:30, we'd be there about 3 and have until 7 or 8. Even 9 if he wants to push it. And I know Frankenmuth is cool, but it's not exciting enough where I could spend an entire 6 hours there.
*sigh*
Everything is so inconvenient right now.
Decided to do something about it instead of complaining. Checked with the vet clinic and moved the appointment up to 8 am. We'll have to get up early-ish on Saturday, but now everything is good. Even if we have to wait an hour or two, or even more, we'll have enough time to be at Frankenmuth by 12.
You're right, I do need a better attitude about things.
I'm sorry.
I came home from school to find that Bodle had diarrhea and shit himself and pretty much everything. The advice I got from the vet was "It's probably his medication." Really? HOW COULD I HAVE GUESSED? So they just said to give him half of the dose I was prescribed for him. By the way, the lady I talked to on the phone, was the assistant who we talked with all night, and somehow she didn't remember that I was there two days ago.
She forgot to give us a list of veterinarians around here who specialize in exotics when my dad and I left on Monday, so she just told me about two places over the phone. The first one is in Clinton Township and is about an hour drive away. The second one is closer but they're not open late hours, or on Sunday.
Mind you, we're going to Frankenmuth on Saturday. I called my dad to tell him and he said he wanted to try to be up at Frankenmuth by noon (impossible now) and that it was an hour and a half drive up there. So, sorry, but it's going to be delayed. It'd be cold in the morning anyway, and it's not like we don't have all day (well, most of it). If we left at 1 or 1:30, we'd be there about 3 and have until 7 or 8. Even 9 if he wants to push it. And I know Frankenmuth is cool, but it's not exciting enough where I could spend an entire 6 hours there.
*sigh*
Everything is so inconvenient right now.
Decided to do something about it instead of complaining. Checked with the vet clinic and moved the appointment up to 8 am. We'll have to get up early-ish on Saturday, but now everything is good. Even if we have to wait an hour or two, or even more, we'll have enough time to be at Frankenmuth by 12.
You're right, I do need a better attitude about things.
I'm sorry.
Sep 11, 2009
Shows I loved in my childhood
- 100 Deeds for Eddie McDowd
- Kenan & Kel
- KaBlam!
- Animorphs
- The Amanda Show
- The Secret World of Alex Mack
- Rocko's Modern Life
- Doug
- Clarissa Explains It All
- Are You Afraid of the Dark?
- All That
- Aaahh!!! Real Monsters
- Cousin Skeeter
- Sheep In The Big City
- Dexter's Labratory
- Johnny Bravo
- Cow and Chicken
- I Am Weasel
- Courage The Cowardly Dog
- Grim and Evil
- Whatever Happened To Robot Jones?
- Mike, Lu, and Og
- Samurai Jack
- Time Squad
Sep 7, 2009
Sep 6, 2009
Sep 3, 2009
I don't blame you for being you, but you can't blame me for hating it.
I couldn't remember the lyrics to that song last night. And I was tempted to search my ipod for that song, but I didn't feel like it.
Anyways, things aren't so bad. To be honest, I don't care as much as I did yesterday. I just wish I could see Carl, or at least talk to him on the phone.
I still don't really want to talk about what happened, but to sum it up, I put trust in someone I obviously shouldn't have. So, sorry if I keep to myself more from now on. Maybe you know, or maybe you don't, but there's a reason it's called being STABBED in the back. SO fuck her, and fuck all of them, and fuck everyone else in the world for all I really care.
Gary told me this: "In your situation right now, you're like Jason, like Jessica and Jason. He may have messed up, and he feels guilty about kicking her and the kids out like he did, and he wants to try and put their family back together, but right now your mom doesn't want anything to do with him. If he just talked to her and apologized for what he did, then things would be fine, back to normal. But he feels to guilty and to embarrassed about what happened to."
No. I'm not like Jason. But I'm not going to apologize because what I did wasn't wrong, and they even said it themselves. Besides, it's been one day and things are pretty much back to normal.
Everyone is retarded.
Anyways, things aren't so bad. To be honest, I don't care as much as I did yesterday. I just wish I could see Carl, or at least talk to him on the phone.
I still don't really want to talk about what happened, but to sum it up, I put trust in someone I obviously shouldn't have. So, sorry if I keep to myself more from now on. Maybe you know, or maybe you don't, but there's a reason it's called being STABBED in the back. SO fuck her, and fuck all of them, and fuck everyone else in the world for all I really care.
Gary told me this: "In your situation right now, you're like Jason, like Jessica and Jason. He may have messed up, and he feels guilty about kicking her and the kids out like he did, and he wants to try and put their family back together, but right now your mom doesn't want anything to do with him. If he just talked to her and apologized for what he did, then things would be fine, back to normal. But he feels to guilty and to embarrassed about what happened to."
No. I'm not like Jason. But I'm not going to apologize because what I did wasn't wrong, and they even said it themselves. Besides, it's been one day and things are pretty much back to normal.
Everyone is retarded.
Sep 2, 2009
Sep 1, 2009
When it gets cold outside, we smoke under playground lights
A film in her eyes from the glow.
1. Composition- Amsdill
2. Drawing- Dimmer
3. Physics- Serri
A lunch
4. AP Macro Econ- Currier
5. AP Calculus- Anselm
6. French 4- Jenkins
I have Physics with Carl, so that's a plus, and we're in the same hallways for half of the day.
Who else has A lunch? Because from what I'm seeing, everyone else has B.
I keep getting fucked over for lunch. There's never anyone to hang out with in my lunches.
1. Composition- Amsdill
2. Drawing- Dimmer
3. Physics- Serri
A lunch
4. AP Macro Econ- Currier
5. AP Calculus- Anselm
6. French 4- Jenkins
I have Physics with Carl, so that's a plus, and we're in the same hallways for half of the day.
Who else has A lunch? Because from what I'm seeing, everyone else has B.
I keep getting fucked over for lunch. There's never anyone to hang out with in my lunches.
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