Je me sens comme le français parlant tout la journée. C'est le faute d'Annie, mais c'est ok.

I haven't posted for a while, I have no idea for a title. I haven't been musically inspired lately. It's rather strange.

Anyhow, I'm falling behind on my goal for Anna Karenina but I'll make it up before next week is over, I promise. I won't have time this weekend, that's for sure.

Eh, salut.

It's been about 2 hours since I started Anna Karenina, and I'm about 1/16th of the way finished.

WOO!
I still have 3 weeks to finish that and Le Rouge et Le Noir


P.S. Our school library doesn't own a copy of War and Peace, oddly enough considering it's one of Tolstoy's (and like, the world's) most famous book EVER.

Down set one, hut-hut, hike, Media Blitz

Have you ever noticed how FUCKING RETARDED people can be in forums?

It is most definitely hell's neighbors, classic cars and then classic coke, and last but not least, IT IS MEDIA BLITZ NOT MEDIA PLEASE.

Someone actually said that Media Blitz makes no sense with the football reference in the line above it. Seriously?

You can only blame your problems on the world for so long before it all becomes the same old song

I still must say that I'm a little disappointed with Folie à Deux. I will admit they're definitely doing something different than anything before, but I think it falls a little short. This is the kind of album where you can actually say you dislike certain songs, or at least I can. In the past I would either love every song immediately or they would grow on me. Now I can definitely say that I don't like some of them. And the way they recorded it makes Patrick's voice sound really terrible on some of the songs also.

Anyhow, we have new rules and I'm glad. I really did miss the rush. It's like an ache that doesn't really go away.

And we had a lot of fun today! We played pool and watched 3 1/2 movies and listened to music and gave/received massages and made noodles and he made my bed and he got a new pair of boxers (even though he'll get more tomorrow when we go shopping) and...



I GOT MY ELEPHANT IN THE MAIL TODAY!

Fucktasticorgasmic!

Why won't the world revolve around me?

Oh Lord. xkcd.com
also conveniently located in my link list on the bottom left.



p.s. 200th!

slammed the door and said, "I'm sorry I, I had a bad day again."

And she swears theres nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me up and puts me on
I had a bad day again









I had another bad dream. I'm sure you didn't mean it that way, or then again, maybe you did, but what you said about my birthday still resonates. I can't stop thinking about it. I'm worried things are going to get bad again. I just have that feeling in my stomach. Please tell me I'm wrong. I've been depressed all day.

Yeah, she talks to angels. Says they call her out by her name.

I called my mom up all angry like. I told her that my sister wasn't allowed to use my stuff so she'll just have to buy her all of her shit. Being the nice person I am, I let her use my phone charger. And like the other 5 times I let her use it, I told her to return it to me in 2 hours when she was done with it. Well, lo and behold, I went down to her bedroom at 9 and asked for it backed. She sat up, told me it was in the computer room and then laid back down. So I asked her, Why didn't you return this to me when I told you to? "I told you it was in the computer room didn't I?" Yeah, well, I don't give a FUCK. You're not using it, or any of my stuff anymore because you can't handle the simple task of returning things that don't belong to you.

In good news, we have candy hearts! I missed all of 11 Questions on my 1re final and probably aced my 2me. Tomorrow however, I'm not sure of, but I studied hard. Real goddamn hard, because this means the difference between failing and passing. Plus, I finished that essay. It was mostly copy+paste from Chelsea's work, but who's going to notice? I was going to use the whole thing because it was very... concise, but it took up about 5 pages even in a really tiny font size. And she used lots of big words. I mean, I use big words in that class, but she used A LOT. Definitely a little obvious that it wasn't all mine. Anyhow, it sounds nice now, I just have to print it out at school tomorrow.
And I have made a promise to be much less stressed out tomorrow than today. It's just a test right? No different than any others we've had. It's not even like they're especially long or something.


I might also be going to the mall tomorrow with Natalena to fuck with people. Which is pretty much the only thing you should do at the mall. This time we can bring army men and bubbles and random gross things to just leave behind.


By the way, wish the best for Carl's olds. His grandma's not doing too well I hear. They were expecting a phone call all night to hear about her. I waited an hour to call back and they were still expecting. I'm not sure if they ever got it, but I hope it's good news. It would be a shame to have met her and have her die 3 days afterward. NOT THAT SHE WILL. I'm not even assuming that's an outcome. I'm not thinking of it at all. I'm just saying, there's always that possibility. Carl was just saying that he had a revelation about NOW and how it's never going to be here again and he's regretting all the time he's not seeing them because he doesn't know when it will be the last time. Point being, keep them in your thoughts if you care enough. And for some of you, maybe even put in a good word with Jeezus.

When it all comes crashing...

Horrible baby name catastrophe averted: Honeysunshineunicornwaffles has been born! 6 lbs 14 oz. 21 1/2"
Haven't actually seen her in person yet. I was busy babysitting and doing that FUCKING history review. The one that you have to answer all of the Questions to get any credit on it at all, and not like extra credit, just plain credit for it. TOTAL DOWNER, but bonus on the name suggestions you guys. Unfortunately it's just plain Bella and there's not much I can do to change that into something nickname-y considering it already is- technically, but you can guess what I'm diggin' for a new name.

In other good news, I found out that my dad actually got me 2 $100 gift card things. One from my money and also one from him for christmas. Problem is I still can't use it at Hottopic, which is where I need to buy all my shit, and half the stuff I can't buy in the store so... yeah.

Still haven't heard from anyone about anything and it's not easing me any.

By the way, I still have no idea what I'm doing anytime this week except for like tomorrow because I usually don't have to think so far ahead. I'm a spontaneous planner, love.

AND for a brief moment of genius, linderz came up with a good idea. She told me to buy a gift card at hottopic with my other giftcard to buy my shit! FUCKING BRILLIANT (as the guinness guys would say).






FUCKTASTICORGASMIC!

When it all comes down to a sunrise on the east side will you be there to carry me home?

I'm back! It was tons and tons of fun! And I love his family a lot more than my own (which isn't technically saying much) but I do love them a lot. I'll tell you more of my adventure in the north (GOD it was beautiful; albeit really cold and snowy), but I have to get on soon.

Anyhow, haven't heard anything from Alex and he's not online. His status said he's still holding his breath so I'll assume nothing big has happened on that front. Good news I guess? It wasn't a tragedy while I was away anyhow.

But last night I had the strangest phone call. You'll need to know a few things first before I tell you about it. Ok. Thursday night, two days before I left, I got a call from Jon (I think? I'm pretty sure). He called from a private number and sounded pretty drunk or high or something. Point is, he wasn't really all there. He almost sounded depressed, but I never got a chance to figure out what was wrong because my phone was on the fritz and died spontaneously. And because it was a private number, I couldn't call him back and he never called again. Then on Friday night, so the night before I left, I got a phone call from Dillon. He was asking about a cd player that he could take with him on a plane. He said something about doing something for his sister and he was sobbing pretty hard. Like, I've never ever heard him that way before. He wouldn't tell me what was wrong, but he said he'd call me back later. Well, I never heard from him and I texted him back but never got a response.
And here's where it gets weird. Last night while I was sleeping in the guest bedroom, I had my phone on vibrate so it wouldn't go off and wake up everyone and The Olds, so obviously I didn't hear it. I found it the next morning because I turned the volume on and it beeped to tell me I had a voicemail. Well, I listened to it. It was from a private number so I couldn't call them back, and I assumed Jon again, but who ever it was didn't say anything on the message. They just sobbed. Like, heartfelt, clearly in pain sort of sobbing. The kind that almost sounds like laughter- which I thought it was at first. And after I realized it was sobbing, I jumped to the conclusion it had to have been Dillon. Well, I haven't heard from either of them and now I'm kind of worried.
Carl had offered up the option that maybe it was Alex, but he doesn't have my phone number, I'm not sure if he knows who or where to get it from and he wouldn't have called from a private phone even if he did. He also would have definitely left a message.
So now I'm really fucking confused, and worried and I still have no answers.





By the way, my sister is most likely (80% positive; she's inducing labor, but you never know how things like that go) going to have her baby tomorrow. She's going to name it Bella. I will never call her that in my life because of that horrid movie/book combination from which she got it from. Plus it's such a common name now because of that same reason (and I hate that movie and all of the commercialism that comes with it) that I cannot even stand to hear it anymore. So if you could, try and think of something good that I can call her.

And also because of this whole baby thing, I will need to be at my mom's house to babysit while everyone's out being exciting and whatnot, so call me if you have anything relevant to this post, or just in general, to tell me.

Waltz of Chihiro

I feel like watching Spirited Away. Or Howl's Moving Castle. Mostly just because I love the soundtracks.



I had an epiphany today that I think you'd be proud of. I realized that there is no way I could ever like someone else more than you. I can't even imagine doing anything with someone else. Because I was thinking about what it would be like without you and how I would probably go out with other people, but then I realized that I would never be able to go as far with them as I have with you. I cannot even fathom it because I'm so topsy-turvy, head-over-heels in love with you.


And any of you who know Alex Noelke, I might have just saved his relationship with Jessi. We'll see how things turn out. He had so little confidence and so much doubt, he just needs to have a little faith in her, he just needs to try.

There's a right way, then there's my way. There's a highway, and if you don't like it you can take it.

I smell like... a lightly chlorinated pool.











My uncle was over.

If I could tear you from the ceiling and freeze us both in time

This was one of the greatest nights we've ever had. And we were at my house! Just watching movies and being silly; and sexy; but very silly. And he had a good day regardless of how it started, and I think maybe he finally felt appreciated for the first time in a very long time. Plus, there is promise of a Sunday!

If only this night, these feelings, could last forever. But if you never knew mourning, if you never knew loneliness, if you never knew wanting, you would never know how happiness feels, or harmony, or satisfaction, or even your heart filling to the point of bursting. And I do! I feel it all, and I feel...

perfect.

Everything is perfect.

And if there's comfort anywhere, it's resting now beneath the sand

I would respond to you nat, but I must be invited to view your blog. Usually that's kind of a hurdle. (woahhhface@gmail.com -ed)

My sister has been on since before I fell asleep at 4:45 ish. It's now 7:20. She wants to be back on the computer at 8. No, more than wants. She needs to be back on at 8. I told her that just might be too bad. And do you know what she tells me? "What do you have to do on the computer?" «The same thing I do on the computer EVERY FUCKING DAY» "Well I need to get on and you're getting off because the world doesn't revolve around you, Andrea."

Ha aha ha ha ha. My sister got mad at me because she realized I was wearing a thong. "OH MY GAWD. You're wearing a thong?! You're so gay." My mom told her there was nothing wrong with wearing them. And then she told her to shutup because everyone knows that she rips on me for doing things and then she turns around and does it the next year.



I finished The Tale of Despereaux. It's still a really good book. Still kind of creepy as fuck. And I still don't understand how they try to market it as a kid's book and movie. It's really not. A mouse is condemned to death by his family in the dungeon, where he'll be eaten alive by rats, a rat escapes from the dungeon a month earlier and kills the Queen by falling in her soup and plots to keep the princess in darkness forever. That same rat also chews the jailer's rope so he gets lost and dies, takes the worldly possessions of a man who sold his daughter into slavery. That same daughter, whose mother died and told her that "no one cares about what you want" is beaten daily by her "uncle," then taken to work as a servant where she still gets beaten daily because she's deaf because of said beatings, and also therefore kind of stupid. The rat tricks that servant girl into taking the princess hostage at knife point by telling her she can be the princess, only to reveal that again, "no one cares about what you want," and that she gets to stay in the dungeon forever too. And also, did I mention that the mouse had his tail chopped off by that servant girl when he got back to the kitchen?
Yeah. Not really a kid's book at all. And people kept asking if I was going to see the movie all day. CHYEAH. Right.


Plus, we just finished reading 451ºF in class. Today. But I'm in the Bonus Question Club! I get a t-shirt! I'm like the first person to get 50 points in about 3 years or something.

In other fantastic news, my iTunes library decided that it no longer can find all of the original files for my songs, so I have to like, manually find all 1000 or so songs. JOYOUS. ACE in fact. And I can't just drag and drop the files back into iTunes because it won't let me for some odd reason, so I must do it this way. This is going to be fun.

I still have to do my homework. I probably won't. Meaning, I will, just not today.

I love you and miss you and what not. Even though it's only been a few hours, but you know how that goes.

"March of the Dogs"

I made some cheesy noodles because I wasn't hungry. I figured I would see it through to completion and then figure out how I felt about them then.



I'm feeling unnecessarily hungry.



So, it's pretty much a given that I won't be at crew Mondays and Thursdays because my boy has pole vaulting then and my mom's car was totaled so I don't have a ride. Conveniently enough, my mom said that she would ask my sister and then call me and leave a message on my phone about lunch time. She didn't actually call until 2:23. Yeah, a whole minute before my sixth hour ends. I didn't actually see that she left me that message until I was on the bus.

Uh, oops.


In good news, Green Day have an album coming out probably around spring. But it could be later in the year. As of yet untitled, but they say it will rival American Idiot.

My noodles are a little more watery than usual. Understandably so. I didn't measure it out.

--Where were you? I missed you today in the hallway. Either that or you were avoiding me.
-I missed you and you missed me. What reason could I possibly have to avoid you? I love you.
--I was just kidding. I wuv wyou a lot. But I guess we'll just have to see each other tomorrow :\
-Or you can call me after pole vaulting and after I go to true value. Then we has luff via teh phonerwebs :)
--Okay, but I still won't get to see you until tomorrow!