To fall in love and fall in debt to alcohol and cigarettes

and Mary Jane to keep me insane, doing someone else's cocaine


I've decided that since it's been so long since I've done one of those word-by-word story-of-my-day telling things, I'm gonna do that now:

wake
up
get
dressed
check
e-mail
sit
around
check
e-mail
sit
around
wander
sit
around
check
e-mail
drive
to
mom's
while
holding
a
phone
conversation
and
a
baby
and
being
followed
by
my
annoying
dog
while
trying
to
get
my
clothes
as
the
world
falls
to
shambles
around
me
pick
up
2
less
than
welcome
guests
go
to
7-11
made
pepsi
slush
machine
EXPLODE
TWICE
out
of
sheer
stupidity
of
everyone
else
around
me
finally
go
back
to
dad's
by
myself
check
e-mail
sit
around
wander
sit
around
check
e-mail
check
it
again
i-am-bored
check
e-mail
youtube
check
e-mail
watch
food
network
on
sister's
T.V.
because
it's
the
only
one
that
works
get
bored
of
that
wander
check
e-mail
blog.



This day definitely wasn't a waste of my time.

You're a legend in this room, only in this room

Fuck.
1. Get school stuff
2. Get hair cut and dyed
3. Go to the Drive-in one last time before school starts
4. Buy homecoming dress
5. Buy those Rise Against tickets



The first three things I need to do this weekend.
The second two during the next week.
I can't afford to do any of them.


In a second, I'm about to fall apart.

Make-out kids never had a chance to be best friends

I'm tired. I scored. Got in a car chase. Had an experience well worth $25. Had so many laughs. Made a shit load of friends that I technically already had. Met the dealer. Heard some good stories. Got a few of my own. Made it back right on time. Learned some new things. Took a shower in 3 minutes. Stole an ipod and then gave it back. Saw how much of a whore Kelly Twigg really is. Found out things I never knew about John. Saw my boy play. Finally figured out his number. Played keep-away with Mark. Found out about Brandon's college from a 6 year old. Felt more awkward than I've ever felt in a long time. Realized how short my uncle is. Listened to Under the Bridge more times than any person should. Read half of Breaking Dawn in 4 hours. Wore my hair in a pony tail. Was aggressively generous. Freaked the fuck out. Finally saw the whole of Kenny's apartment. Still haven't seen his kid. And finally relived the entire night in my head at least 1,000 times.



To think, this day started with babysitting at 6 in the morning and pajamas until 5.

Dy-ing! I'm dy-ing! I'm so cute and I'm dy-ing!

I'm not. But my phone is :(


That makes me a sad Don't-Do-Things-To-Irritate-Your-Inner-Ear Badger.

You're Allergic to Love

1-U.S. History-Herron, J-A16
2-Chemistry-Kendall, D-B14
3-Pre-Calc-Perales, J-B11
4-Lang Arts 10-Windle, R-G37
B Lunch
5-French 3-Jenkins, A-C28
6-Health-Bretting, J-F18


Locker #-1911-(c hall)

Wasting words on lower cases and capitals

Ow.




















Worth it.
Definitely.

This is one time that you can't fake it hard enough to please.

There was no point in only sleeping on half of the bed last night.
Why does it keep ending up that way?
I can't say I'm not a little frustrated. Nothing went as I had thought it would. I ended up crying and hugging him in the basement.

Do you know what I want?
I want you and I. Alone. But somewhere other than my house. Anywhere. A movie, a park, a beach, fucking somewhere else. I want to enjoy the day with you without doing anything sexual. Because that's how it always ends up now. Sexual. I like it too, but we both are afraid of it becoming just about sex, and to me, it looks like we're heading that way. I want you.






Well as for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs and sit alone and wonder

Let's give it up for the ladies dancing.

I just saw the funniest thing in my entire life. I burned a piece of pizza by accident and so I threw it outside. Well, on the step waiting for me was our squirrel, and so I left to get him some AppleJacks. When I came back, he had disappeared with the whole pizza underneath the trampoline, trying to eat it. Mind you, it was pretty much charred and the cheese was quite literally boiling.


I have never seen a squirrel do so many back flips in my life.


And then he tried to carry it away again. He didn't go far. He dropped it like it's hot (because it was) and sat there looking as pissed off as I have ever seen a squirrel. He was just swishing his tail back and forth and, like, sidestepping all around it. I can't tell if he was chattering because the windows were closed, but I can imagine he was. I really wish I had gotten it on video. Or at least a picture or something.


I really hope that squirrel doesn't have third degree burns on its mouth. Or like, die.

Is it worth it? Can you even hear me?

1. I just about never listen to music that other people suggest to me.
2. I talk about everyone behind their back. At least I'll be honest about it.
3. Unless I benefit somehow, I will not do anything I don't have to.
4. I get jealous very easily.
5. I don't like to be touched.
6. I have issues. Irrational ones, and most of the time if you pull at the strings of these issues unintentionally, I will never tell you because I know that the only way for me to ever get over them (if I do, that is) is to deal with it.
7. I cry when I get frustrated.
8. I tell the truth when it needs to be told. Otherwise, 85% of the things that I say are lies.
9. My intentions are mature. When I carry them out, I'm not.
10. I know the exact reasons why I do things.



I'm getting better.
Admitting you have (a) problem(s) is the first step.

Hush, it's OK, dry your eyes.

I only sleep on one half of the bed.











Just in case.



Soul mate dry your eyes, cause soul mates never die.

I was never grateful.

Ladybird, Ladybird, fly away home.
Your house is on fire.
Your children shall burn.












I don't feel like coming or going, I suppose it's just the way I'm growing.
Time to slip beneath the sheets and just let the world die.

How's it gonna be when you don't know me anymore?

I miss you.










I wanna taste the salt of your skin,
the soft dive of oblivion.

Watch the stars turn you to nothing

Now blush and smile, as they whisk you away



Obviously I was gone for a week up at Intermediate Lake, which is in Bellaire, up near Traverse City. I was looking at it on the map and it almost made me cry because this is the first time I've gone on vacation to a place that you can actually find. Anyway, I got up there Monday morning at roughly 5:30- 6:00 after leaving Sunday night at 11:00. It's a four hour drive for most people. We got lost... twice. I don't understand how because it's actually on a map this time. Regardless, I spent half of that day sleeping and the other half in the lake because that's always the first thing you want to do at a lake front cabin. It was pretty nice because it's shallow all the way out to the end of the dock, and a little beyond that. It never reaches above your waist, or rather, my waist, which is a completely different height to most of you. Although, about 10 feet off of the dock, it drops off to about 12 ft. We spent most of our first two days in the water, but after that it got boring fast. Especially because no one had really planned anything for us to do while in the water, no one really had games to play or things to play with, and not everyone wanted to swim either, so that left the same people over and over again playing the same game which was basically Marco Polo. I did end up buying a fun ball for us all to use when swimming when we went into town, but no one remembered to use it half of the time and when they did they wouldn't do anything with it, so that plan failed I guess. I also bought a net in town so that we could catch minnows and other little fries. We managed to catch a small mouth bass, a large mouth bass, and two perch, not to mention about 20 minnows. All in all, not a bad catch for a butterfly net. The minnows all died after about half an hour anyway and we just used them as bait. Which didn't work so well because there's not much fishing to be had off the dock. Gary did end up going off in his boat with Jason and caught himself a 4 lbs. small mouth. It was pretty big. I have a few pictures but, I don't really care and neither do you.
Back to what I was originally saying, the water was pretty boring after about 2 and a half days, so the rest of the time we basically spent playing Uno, Phase 10, or Dice. There may have been some other games in there that I don't quite remember, but we pretty much stuck to those 3. Although, Thursday we went up to Mackinac and then crossed the bridge and meandered around the UP for a while, where I stole knick knacks and we went to the Garlyn "Zoo" which was basically a bunch of animals that live in the forest around here in cages with signs and feeders. Granted, there were some exotic animals, but none of them seemed too thrilled about being there. None of them moved at all. I still seriously doubt that that animal we saw in the wolf cage was a wolf. It looked more like a dog. AND THERE WERE NO OTTERS >:( But there was a Buffalo :D to which I said, "Buff-a-lo, buff-a-lo, buff-a-lo" and it sort of shook it's head at me. And now, I have decided that I want a miniature donkey as a pet.


WHERE THE FUCK IS THE MUSTACHE?!?!?!
ZOMG SOMEONE TOOK THE MUSTACHE OFF OF MY COMPUTER!
*incoherent mumbling* dammit. FTL!


Sorry, that just made me really angry. What was I saying again? Oh yeah, the donkey. I want one because apparently they are naturally affectionate and make good pets and stuff. It was on the sign. Oh yeah, and the deer there were malnourished. It felt like they were skeletons, and I don't even know why because every single day, a bunch of people feed them crap. I would expect them to be fat and like, trained. But no, they were thin as rails and most of them spent their time as far away from people as possible. Anyway, the "zoo" was a bad idea so we just went back into their gift shop, where I proceeded to shoplift, and then left. But when we left, their dog sort of followed us to the parking lot and so we were feeding it our lunches. Which was good, because I really didn't want a soggy, cold sandwich. It took forever to get that dog to go away though. Every time we tried to back out, it would sit behind our car. So I threw a sandwich into the forest and we peeled out of there. All in all, it wasn't worth the money we paid for it, and I don't recommend.
Be that as it may, we did end up leaving Friday because I was going to go to the Mayhem concert that was on Saturday with Carl, but there ended up being a fiasco with his ticket and weren't able to go anyway. Well, I could've gone, but he really wanted to go and I wouldn't have felt right going without him. Yeah, so, we left Friday, and if we hadn't left Friday, we would've had to get up and leave in the morning before 10 am anyway, so we decided we should all leave, which wasn't so bad. I hate to admit it, but I was getting a little tired of the place. Especially because we were supposed to have been renting out both cabins that were there, the one in front and in back, but we thought we were only supposed to have one, so we could've used the other one the entire time. Which also kind of worked out for the better because we would have had to pay a whole lot more for the second cabin.
So, three days ago now, I got home. I spent Saturday with Carl obviously, and then I spent Sunday with Katie and Lizzi. And there were parts of Saturday that had Ryan and Ryan and Ajdin, but mostly it was Katie and Lizzi. Katie did end up spending the night and we had ourselves a fun night. We hung out with Dillon for about 25 minutes up at Kennedy before my dad realized we were gone and got all parental and made us come home. Then we laid on the giant pile of blankets in the middle of the floor and watched the Life of Brian and passed out.

That was pretty much what I did when I left/ just came back. Nothing too special. I mean, except for the whole "vacation" thing, it was exactly like any other week. I hope I haven't missed much down here, one week away from the social network and I could be completely lost. Well, I'm gonna cross my fingers and dive head first back in, so let's hope the water's deep.

Honestly tell me everything that you have been up to in this last week. I need to know what's going on because something big is coming and I want to be prepared.

Uh huh, holy shit, it's about time you get off my dick

I got back last night ca. 3:30 am, so I didn't bother calling and announcing it to certain people, but nonetheless, I am here. I have so much to say, but not enough time to say it. I'll get back to you later.

Tripping eyes and flooded lungs, Northern Downpour sends its love

I know what I want now.