Wearing the face that she keeps in a jar by the door. who is it for?

lately i've been noticing that i haven't noticed things lately.

i forgot my own birthday this year, and many other peoples'
i didnt notice until friday evening that halloween was less than a week away
i never even noticed the leaves changing colors, or falling off for that matter
i haven't noticed the birds flying south
its just like ive missed things this year.

normally these are things i look forward to, and for holidays and such, normally im counting down the days months in advance, but this year, was different.
there always used to be an abundance of small things to be seen, and big things as well, that i've just missed this year. and i dont like it.
it was like i floated through the entire year up until this point. granted, its not like i haven't felt anything, its not in a sense that i have been "dead" this past year, but to a point, i really havent been living either. I dont like the difference between this year and the past. i hope the rest of my life is not like this, if indeed there is a rest of my life. i dont think i could live with being numb. well i probably could, its just that i dont think i could live being numb and not noticing it until its too late.

All the boys screaming "cut, cut, cut" All the girls screaming "sew me up"

so its off to see the wizard tomorrow,

er, rather, off to see across the universe.

fun times
shall be had by all
except those who are not accompanying us on our magical journey.

but they are fools.

Come back to me, It's almost easy

Do you hate me?

because i wish you did.

Till all the kingsmen fluster and clusterfuck

so. I AM SO HAPPY

we finally got a computer desk.

NO MORE SLOUCHING OVER THE LITTLE END TABLE THING ON A STOOL

GOODBYE BACK STRAIN AND PAIN!

HELLO PROPER BACK COMFORT AND POSTURE!


(im doing a dance right now but you cant see it)

(its a mixture between a boogy and a jive)

i cant dance though

so its more like: *trip, fall, destroy computer desk, set house on fire, armageddon*

AS A FINAL WORD TO YOUALLZ, AGAIN I MUST SAY, GO SEE MY NEW BLOG THING:

pullthetriggerblowmybrainsout.blogspot.com

XP

HEY! YOU!

i got bored so i mades another blog

check it:

pullthetriggerblowmybrainsout.blogspot.com

i havent posted anything, so sorry.

I'm right here in front of you, and i cant stop sh-sh-shaking, i cant stop sh-sh-shaking, come on and hold me still

I skipped school

with natalie

went to the mall

bought myself a hat

got away with it.





:D

We All Know You're A Beautiful Girl In This Horrible World

so, me wakes up and do all of my interwebby stuff (check my email, myspace, blog etc.) like i normally do, and im reading Carl's blog and he's being all Carl-ish and it makes me cry.

so we were just about to leave to go to the cider mill up in Hartland with our cousins, and Im crying the whole hour or so drive up there, and the whole hour or so drive back. i would have cried while i was there, but i dont cry in front of other people. usually anyways. and even though i wasnt crying i was very sad.

i got rock candy and a gallon of apple cider which cheered me up for about two minutes, but the rest of the time i was sad.

which really took the fun out of the cider mill experience.

but im okay now.

cuz im going on a haunted hayride, which is our halloween tradition, and can you guess who's coming with me?

You're right, its Carl.

so I'm happy again. I'll be seeing him in about two or so hours.

immaneedsumcandee. cuz i am all kool like and give it to the monsters when they are all up in my face.

You Wear Your Skin Like It's Too Tight

should i be like everyone who went to hc and talk about how they had so much fun and did this and that and so forth...
or should i be like me and tell you the vaguest thing ever?

i think you know the answer:

okay i have only a few words to say about hc (as i said, im going to be vague):

dance

stand

talk

dance

dance

COLIN DICKFACE!

dance

stand

cling

stand

dance

JUMP ON IT

dance

stand

punch

brain freeze

(there are sporadic kisses in there fyi)

stand

wait

dance

stand

wait

leave.

then, we all went to lizzi's house and me and carl "purpled"
(hey carl i think we should purple some more)
and then everyone left except for me and carl and allison (who i gave a ride home)
and it was 1 in the morning. then i found out that allison lives around the corner from my cousins so i told her that ill probably visit sometimes.

Well I had fun anyway...

I went to Chelsea's party yesterday/last night

before that, Carl came over, and we had to go to the grocery store. it was okay.
i had to get chelsea's gifts and whatnot. i was going to buy her a pikachu stuffed animal, but along with the three cases of jones candy, a monster and two beanie babies, i didnt have enough.

I was going to buy myself the new shonen jump magazine because it was a bleach issue, but then i saw the jones sodas again. and i knew i had to put it back because jones is way more important than a magazine. especially if there are three jones' involved.

anyways, carl and i went back to the house and hung out there. and then we got into a tickle fight and he was being a dirty rotten cheater >P
but i love him.

then we dropped him off, and i went to chellies, and it was great. i met the coolest person i could ever meet. her name was AMANDA. coolness. then we spent like all night playing guitar hero 2. i totally rocked it.

and we went outside and made smores for a period of about 10 mins. mostly we just used the pogo sticks. i totally rocked those too. 51 in a row BITCHES. and i was buzzed too.

oh i forgot to tell you. while we were inside playing guitar hero, i was sitting on the couch in her basement getting high off of her markers cuz they smelled really good. I never really got to the point of like "stoned" but i was buzzed for quite awhile. it entertained some people.

and we played darts. which is never a good idea for me to play regardless, but you know i was buzzed too, so there was a big hazard there. i sucked at that. they kept bouncing off the board and hitting people, and then i broke one (the dart i mean).

and there was the bop it. oh the fun we had with that.

and the easy button. i dont know where to begin with that.

i guess if you want the stories, youll have to talk to me some other time, because ive only got about half an hour before im going to get ready for hc, and i dont feel like telling you now.

Lovely

Carl was over last night. It was fun. As always.

my dearest friend kenneth stopped by with my bike. Thanx kenny.
carl finally got to meet him.
i mean hes met him before, but like he got to actually hang out and talk with him.

yeah. hes a great guy.

anyways, i made carl put on my jacket, which he didnt think would fit, but its like 2x so i knew it would.
if he had been wearing a black shirt, he would have made one sexy emo kid and i would have been ontop of that in a second... if we werent about to leave of course.

i love purple on you carl. c'est tres beaucoup sexy.

your hoodie smells nice, like you.
it was the only thing i wore to bed last night.
i slept peacefully. it was still kind of chilly but... your hoodie kept me warm.

I love you.

and by the way, my dad says that he will take us to max & ermas, with katie and them, and pick us up again and take us to homecoming.

anyways, tomorrow im going to chellies birthday party thingy. its guaranteed to be awesome. so ill be writing back to you either right after the party, or a few days later, because i dont know when ill be back here at my dad's house.

signing off,

je t'embrasse,

ton rapports chat

ou ton preferes

sex kitty.

All because of you, i havent slept in so long, when i do i dream of drowning in the ocean, longing for the shore, where i can lay my head down.

I spent the day at Lizzi's on sunday, which was yesterday.

it was pretty fun
she was home alone because her parents and her sisters went to pennsylvania or wherever.
which is unfair cuz my parents wouldnt dream of leaving me home for an entire weekend, plus like two schooldays.

*pouty face*

anyways, we played 20 questions, which apparantly is katie's favorite game when she goes to lizzi's, and i learned of how it wouldnt say condom, but it would always say lubricant.

i got it to say a poop.

hysterical for some unknown reason. Probably because i didnt expect it to actually guess that.
i have a friend who has one that will say vagina and/or anus. well it says cock too, but not in the way your thinking of, it means the animal.

i know now i should tell you what im wearing for homecoming but im going to be mean and give you a very vague description.

-dress
-shoes
-makeup

there you go. now you hate me and you really would like to know what im wearing, but you, like carl, will just have to wait and see >P

well its 5 in the morning before school, i "forgot" to do homework, which doesnt really matter for biology, but i really should have done my history homework. it was just reading. well, and taking notes, but who does that? besides its not like we need notes cuz we never have to study them, filly (filiatraut for those of you unaware of the slang) gives us study notes the day before quizzes anyways.

oh yeah i forgot to tell all of you, its time to start the betting pool on how long it will take me to flunk out of my classes, because i got my progress report and guess what? i did horrible:

Biology: Ziedas............................Current grade is approximately B, is a pleasure to have in class. Im sure.
Acc Algebra 2: Haverkate (ditz)....Current grade is approximately C, missing assignments. more than you know.
Managing Money: Austin..............Current grade is approximately B, is a pleasure to have in class. i doubt he knows i exist.
World History: Filiatraut...............Current grade is approximately B, is a pleasure to have in class. how original.
French 2: Jenkins........................Current grade is approximately C, is a pleasure to have in class. Is that a broken record i hear?
English: Dallacqua......................Current grade is approximately C, (can you guess?) is a pleasure to have in class. which surprised me cuz im missing more assignments in that class than in algebra.

im doing better than i thought, but i was surprised to find i had a c in french. which is strange cuz i actually do my work in that class. maybe its based on my participation then... cuz you know that barely happens.
im usually making faces at natalie, and being her not so secret, secret lover.

so best advice for those of you in the betting pool, give me at least after this semester. im not doing that bad.
lets just see where i fall from here.

signing off, sex kitty

yeah, well

Im sorry carl.

you know for the...


well you know.

well actually most of you reading this dont know but...


you dont really need to know.



well you probably will find out anyway, so...

whatever.

so...

yeah
apparantly skyler owns me.
which makes him a pimp and i am his bitch.
so at lunch, jew boy got up to get a slush, and dillon stole his seat at the table,
and by the time jew boy got back, there were no other spots, so i told him just to sit on my lap,
and then skylers like,"you owe me two bucks for that."
and im like,"please im doing this for free, ill pay you with my own money."
and so he says,"you better."
so we starts laughing cuz its funny,
and he makes some jokes about how i have a dick and what not, and how jew boy must like dicks and so forth.
then as we were walking in the hall, he says, "you still owe me two dollars"
so im joking around and i says, "but skyler cant you cut me a break just this once? i need the money for my four kids and meth addiction!"
and he says, "no. i need the money more."
and im like,"aww. but i really need to buy meth skyler!"
but he wouldnt budge.
then we worked it out on aim.
he said that i could keep it this time.
but there will be no more freebies.


speaking of being a whore.....

yeah, daniel bowen is my pimp, and skyler, and some other people that i forget, probably katie and like lizzi and natalie, and some other kool people like that. so basically i am a big whore. i am also the rape fairy, so that makes me like an even bigger whore.

im sorry carl. you know for being such a whore....





.......and for molesting robert.
but that really wasnt my fault. cuz he was just sitting in such an irresistable position that i just had to jump on top of him.
i know it took you a month to get in my pants, and all he had to do was sit there, but like i said, maybe you should ask him how to sit in chairs so that you are randomly sexed by girls that are me. and if you are sexed by girls that arent me, i would probably be okay too. considering that it would be hipocratic of me to get mad, seeing as how im a big whore and all.



yeah. this probably works out great for you in the end, because you know, when the time finally comes that i really let you in my pants, you will know that i will be excellent in yours cuz of all my whore experience.

rotflmfaopmpasms.

(for those of you who are not computer slang oriented, that means rolling on the floor, laughing my fucking ass off, peeing my pants and splitting my sides)

so now i am a loser and cuz no one ever emails me, im gonna go check my spam. and if you love me. you should surprise me with an email and i will be all happy during third hour when i check it.
(my email is woahhhface@gmail.com for those of you who dont know)

anyways, i have one last thing to say:


i love carl


(like you werent expecting that)

mad skills

Hah.
my neice is over. not the six year old one, the little baby. and she's like 7 mos. old now with mad typing skills
i thought i would share it with you:

0/jihmlkjjbhub b =.89 on bbbbbb9-oi v01119LL.; 3

hah. Sundays will never be the same.

i only have a few words to say about the best sunday ever:

carl.

football.

babysitting.

six.

year.

old.

make.

out.

pizza.

make.

out.

some.

more.

niece.

again.

breakfast.

club.

in.

my.

room.

on.

my.

bed.

in.

my.

pants.

(briefly)

blue.

balls.

in that order.